loving one another is hard work. the world tries to tell us that love is easy. that if you are meant to be, you’ll just know, you’ll just feel it, it’ll be natural. but sometimes love contains many tears and much forgiveness of both others and forgiveness for ourselves. and that is not always natural. there were times when we were dating that i almost gave up on you ryan. not because you weren’t worth it. not because you didn’t deserve me….you deserved everything, you deserved more than me. but because i was so, so consumed with my feelings and i let fear root deep in my heart whenever this love got hard. but i am learning and will always be learning how hard love can be and how worth it you are and how you pick me too, everyday. despite my feelings, despite my natural human tendency to take the easy road out, i will love you. i will take the difficult road and it will be hard, we may have to rock climb a little, but it will be full of color and dreams and your steady hand in mine. and we will not go gently into the night of complacency but will fight together to love one another with a fierceness that must overflow to those around us. i pick us over and over and over.
this is fukcing bullshit